My Selfishness is Manipulative (from previous blog)

So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God's law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. - Romans 7:21-23 

Once again I've found myself gradually drifting away from God. It seems that I'm able to stay on track for only a few days before I realize that I haven't been talking to Him as much as I need to. I haven't been reading the Bible like I should. I am once again trying to reclaim control of my life. I don't even understand how one day I'm so close to God and I want nothing outside of what He has for me and the next day that desire is only a memory. I'm so quick to make decisions on my own that really I should be praying about first. I should always be praying...about everything. 

Lately I've been taking every possible opportunity to get what I want. I'm so blinded by my own selfish desires that so often I forget that what He has for me is much better than what I want for myself. I am selfish in my prayers. I tend to pray only when I think I need Him. I'm so foolish in thinking this way. I'm foolish for not thanking Him and praising Him always and I'm foolish for thinking that there is ever any time that I don't need Him. I keep thinking to myself every time that I feel close to God, "this time I wont wander away." I've tasted His goodness, but still, I stray. I know how wonderful it is to be in His will, but I continue in selfish pursuit of my own wants. 

Then he said to them all: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me." - Luke 9:23 

I know what the problem is and I know exactly what I need to do about it. I think that following Christ is a decision I need to make daily. What I'm not sure of is how to keep God at the top of my thoughts. So I'm thinking that this is the reason for my wandering. The number of activities I can do without even the thought of God entering my mind is absurd. My priorities are all wrong. I guess I just need to pray about it. I need to wake up in the morning and commit each day to God, and I cant stop there. My communication with God and my dedication to Him needs to be continuous. 

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. - 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18