So my roommate just pointed something out to me that I had been completely oblivious to. Last Sunday I was certain that I would be going through a major trial, but I didn't end up going through that trial. So I assumed that I wouldn't be getting the trial I had prayed for afterall. I was totally taken by surprise when Kara told me that perhaps I did get the trial. It just wasn't at all what I had expected.
Lately I haven't really been a good friend. I'm selfish and irritable and completely impatient. I haven't been listening the way that I should. I haven't been loving my brothers and sisters as Christ commanded me to. This attitude I've had has been affecting my relationships greatly. I feel as though some of my closest friendships are struggling to survive.
My opinion is that everyone around me is too opinionated with no basis for their opinions. But that's my problem. I get angry because I feel that my friends are too intent on talking about what they want to talk about and they don't care to listen to what others have to say. But that is also my problem. I feel that my friends are selfish and demanding, always wanting everything to be convenient for them and not even considering those around them. But once again, that's my problem.
It's so easy for me to point out flaws in others, even when I myself have the exact same flaws. It's even easier when I don't happen to struggle with the same flaws that they do. So right now, I guess this is my struggle. I'm so focused on the flaws that I see in people that I'm blind to all their good qualities. I'm so intent on judging people that I suck at being a friend.
Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. - 1 John 4:7
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